Green Day Out, Tugun Support Group & Others

I have been feeling totally Aspie and decided to hide myself in my nutshell for the rest of the month. Somehow I managed to give Matthew a call in the morning and he persuaded me to get out of the shell this afternoon to the Green Day Out and Tugun support group. I said alright...but then I got so Aspie and sleepy after lunch and decided to stay in the nut shell...and sleep with Kumo for a lazy Sunday afternoon.

Matt called me again because he didn't see me at the Green Day Out, and then I was like...alright...maybe I really should drag myself out of the Aspie hiding misery. So I went to the Green Day Out with Matt and James, both lovely Aspies :D I bought some stuff and was quite interested in going to yoga again...but can't find anyone to go with me. In my experience, it's not very motivating going to things like yoga by yourself. I was hoping that Matt would go with me, but he wants to go with another guy. Fair enough.

We all headed to the Tugun meeting afterwards. I wasn't feeling well, took two Valium and still feeling distress and anxious. So I left and went to the park next to the meeting place and play on the swing, my favourite childhood activity, and sang songs. I returned just 10 mins before the meeting finishes. Ok...and then I had a break out...I don't want to talk about it because I'm so ashamed of it. I can't believe I said the F word...I would never say the F word... I was so angry suddenly and couldn't control it. Yes, I have serious anger and impulse control and I hate myself for that.

So the day ended pretty lousy, but I didn't regret that I went out. It's good to go out and interact with people. I got home and felt like vomitting really bad, and very drowsy. I called Kolin to ask for help and he asked me if I've forgotten taking any medication which reminded me that I didn't take anti-depressant this morning. There you go! Still feeling very sick, so I'll end it here.

Oh, last words, sucks that there's no female Aspie at Tugun meeting. There's one mature lady but she just talked to other parents in another room and didn't join our conversation. I hope the "teddy bear girl" will eventually show up! I want to meet female Aspie...afterall, male Aspie is quite different from female Aspie.