Exhausted

I'm exhausted. I'm sick of dealing with myself. I just want to rest, or escape.

Why can't I just escape all these like other people do? Smoking, drinking, drugging...

Or just quit uni...

Or just end it all...

Which one is better? The bottom line is, I don't want to deal with it anymore. I give up fighting for now. You hear me? I give up. I don't want to go to psychologist anymore. I don't want to take medication. I don't want to do a thing. I had enough.

Give me a break. After fighting for 10 years, I need a break. Just let me rest.